This Love Hurts: A Dark Romance by Nikita

Author:Nikita [Nikita]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2020-10-29T18:30:00+00:00

I was almost eighteen when I died. That was the day he finally killed me and made my soul become so black, I didn’t know if I would ever come back from it. The day when nothing but hatred festered in my heart.

It was also the day I embraced the monster he turned me into from all the agony, pain, and endless torture he made me suffer through from the time I was fourteen until now.

I was almost eighteen when I freed myself. Though it didn’t come without a permanent spot in Hell and, in all honesty, I’d do it again and again and again.

It takes a monster to destroy another monster. Sometimes, you have to become the thing you hate most in the world just to have a chance against it. Because if you don’t take down the monsters threatening to take away all your sanity and strip you bare, then you will never escape from their clutches.

Sometimes, you have to let go of all that you are and all that you hoped you would be to survive by becoming the things you never dreamed you would turn into. It eventually gets to that point where you have to be like them to defeat them, and that’s exactly what I had to do.

My life got so much worse after that night when my father made me take all of those men inside my body. Every week, there was a different guy who got to use me in any way he wanted. It didn’t matter what sick shit he was into because he got to act out whatever it was he wanted. Rich assholes, the sons of his friends, and some who I didn’t even know.

They got to do things to me they couldn’t do to their girlfriends or wives. I was like a glorified prostitute, only he had me caged inside of a mansion I couldn’t escape from and I got none of the money I heard my father say he got when he let them touch me.

I never knew who was father and son because they never came together, but they all took things I was unwilling to give, things that never belonged to them and things that made me feel like I was losing my sanity until I felt like I had nothing left to give anyone anymore, myself included.

I hated myself more and more each day because I couldn’t stop all the dirty things they did to me and all the pain they made me feel. However, nothing brought on more self loathing than when I liked the pain sometimes, because my body would respond in ways that I never dreamed that it would or even should. Sometimes, I’d get wet and then I hate myself right after they finished with me.

I couldn’t explain why this was happening to me. How could I hate every single thing they did, but also respond? Sometimes, I wonder if I was just as fucked in the head as he was for liking something as horrendous as him using my body without my permission.

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